okay, I am starting to panic now. all doubts are in my mind and won’t leave. can I do this ? can I really take care of myself? can I be alone? what if I can’t? what if I fail ? of course I can’t do this, what was I thinking? I can’t leave but can’t stay either. I have to leave and not only because I have start paying rent already but I will just get more frustrated with my parents if I stay here. there sweet and good people really. but they just don’t get me and that is frustrating for all of us. I’m just afraid, very afraid..