its been a wile since I made my last blogpost, I have reasons for that and I will go into them later. first I want to thank you all for visiting and reading my blogpost and even for commenting on them, as your comments are always kind and constructive and helpful. I have heard about trolls but never seen one here and there I am very thankful of that.
soooo as to why the long silence. well I have been busy and/or not feeling too well. busy as in working, that is something of the last 2 weeks. we got a big order and we all have to work a lot more. and as I am a people pleaser I did put myself up for a lot of overtime, tbh for a bit too much and I will work less hours next week.
I think one of the reasons why I did wanted to work so much next to want to please my boss (he can’t be pleased really) I am feeling better when I work and am around people. I have been feeling down in evenings and weekends and when I do feel like that I can’t really write anything, so I didn’t.
it hasn’t only been work I have been busy with, I have met up with friends more and when I didn’t do that I had to go to my parents and I have been twice to a new choir to see if I liked it. I won’t be going there any more because…I like to say because I am too darn busy that would be less then honest, it is because I can’t really handle myself in these big social things. there are a lot of people and there is is expectation of being entertaining and nice, that makes me quite anxious. so much that I had to leave the room in order not to burst out in tears in front of everyone. and that is when I decided that I don’t want to do that to myself, I have enough going on as it is.
I will try not to take so long before my next post comes out and to make it a bit more interesting then this one.