long time..no blog

its been a wile since I made my last blogpost, I have reasons for that and I will go into them later. first I want to thank you all for visiting and reading my blogpost and even for commenting on them, as your comments are always kind and constructive and helpful. I have heard about trolls but never seen one here and there I am very thankful of that.

soooo as to why the long silence. well I have been busy and/or not feeling too well. busy as in working, that is something of the last 2 weeks. we got a big order and we all have to work a lot more. and as I am a people pleaser I did put myself up for a lot of overtime, tbh for a bit too much and I will work  less hours next week.

I think one of the reasons why I did wanted to work so much next to want to please my boss (he can’t be pleased really) I am feeling better when I work and am around people. I have been feeling down in evenings and weekends and when I do feel like that I can’t really write anything, so I didn’t.

it hasn’t only been work I have been busy with, I have met up with friends more and when I didn’t do that I had to go to my parents  and I have been twice to a new choir to see if I liked it. I won’t be going there any more because…I like to say because I am too darn busy that would be less then honest, it is because I can’t really handle myself in these big social things. there are a lot of people and there is is expectation of being entertaining and nice, that makes me quite anxious. so much that I had to leave the room  in order not to burst out in tears in front of everyone. and that is when I decided that I don’t want to do that to myself, I have enough going on as it is.

I will try not to take so long before my next post comes out and to make it a bit more interesting then this one.


One response to “long time..no blog

  1. Well done for trying out something new. Don’t feel bad that you don’t want to go again, if you don’t force things when you panic, then you won’t mind trying other things in future 😉

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